For how long shall I break within,
For how long should I stay numb?
For how long should I fight back?
For how long should I lie?
For how long should I console my heart?
It was getting tougher, harder day by day.
But, now it so feels like ‘someone is stopping me from breathing’.
I so feel isolated, lost in my dark world, where j can’t even find my own shadow to carry.
For how long should I just wait?
Wait for hope to things get better,
Or waiting to witness all heartening things happening?
What is getting so hard for me?
Although it’s taking me each breath, I still don’t want to move away from here, I just want to stay back, stay back in the hope that I had sowed someday.
The hope in his smile, in his name, in his voice, in his words.
I cry, I Yell in his name and scream loudly for someone to rescue me, and then, I find myself consoling my heart, and mind back with all beautiful lies. I fight within myself for him.
I don’t utter a word to him.
I shall wait,
I shall wait,
I shall wait.
But can anyone of you, tell me for how long should I stay?
And trust me, till then I won’t speak a thing, I won’t even Hush, I will wait. I will wait. And just keep waiting until he returns.
Darling, if you’re not returning, please splash your sword on my hope, and let me live in your souvenir, don’t let me die to wait for you.